Bitterness

God, why is it so hard to let go? Why do I allow little things to grow into huge mountains? Is it so hard to forgive tiny transgressions when God has to forgive my garbage all the time? Do we really think we deserve forgiveness more than others. Sometimes Im so pissed at myself for not having the heart of Christ when I know how much others and the Lord have forgiven me. We are supposed to esteem others as better than us, yet we find a way to knock each other down constantly. I pray right now for a changed heart and a new mindset...Lord help us all love and forgive one another in Jesus name.